Weeks of the Ancestors – they begin…

I’ve been looking to add things to my weeks of the ancestors. Things I’d never thought of from different cultures, things I just never thought of. So to do this I’ve been asking some friends about things I should add.

One of them said telling stories of my ancestors.

The thing is a) I have no one to tell the stories to b) my family doesn’t like to talk much about things the others have done. A lot of them don’t understand the remembering the dead thing. As my mother has said “they are dead, so what?”. Because of where a lot of my family is buried I cannot go to their graves, my one grand parent in ottawa, 2 others in Chapleau, and the last is still alive. My great uncle that I knew is up in Thunder Bay, as you see there is a lot of distance that my family has traveled over time. As I get the chance to visit these areas I do go check on the graves, ensure there is nothing wrong and no damage has been done, it’s the best I can do.

However I went to see my Grandma on a visit, I hadn’t seen her in a while and I was missing her birthday dinner, so since it was her birthday visit I chose not to dwell on the past for her. When I was about to leave, while she was indisposed I was looking at the pictures around her room and saw one of her brother Armond. I have been working on a calendar of birth and death dates to bring my worship through the rest of the year and found the one of him. It had his birthday and date he joined the ancestors. Feb 25th and Feb 9th respectively. Apparently that was the information I was supposed to go find!

So he has now been added and things slowly evolve as I look for a better time than a week after my Grandma’s birthday to ask her more questions.

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Slowly getting into a routine

The ADF clergy path requires certain things of it’s members who have had the call. 

One of these things that is required is that the dedicant do weekly retreat days where there is a morning prayer, a nightly prayer, meal prayers and a full hearth ritual. I am slowly getting into practice to try to do some of these things daily. 

My hope is to get into the practice to do a morning and nightly prayer as well as the meal prayers daily (that way I can’t forget to do them weekly) as well as a hearth ritual on tuesdays and thursdays. 

I’m currently finding things difficult because my altar and room are a MESS!!! We re-arranged my room and things that went with the altar just kinda got shoved there vs finding another place for them. So my altar has been non-functional for a little bit. My chair that I use at it has been piled high with things so I cannot sit at it and, well, this situation is just not working for me. As my pain levels lighten up I want to be able to get into these routines and actually have my spirituality in my life vs just being a doing pagan. Even then I haven’t been doing much lately because of the pain. 

I want to take flowers to the cemetery again. I want to take a walk through the chickadee trail and heber down now that I can actually walk for about 20 min or so without wanting to die. 

All these things I will do, Soon!!!

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Why Druidry?

This is the first in a series of 30 prompts called “30 days of Druidry” please see the other posts under this tag for more.

Three years ago I wrote for this very prompt:

how do you explain the feel of the wind against your face, or the smell of a lover’s embrace? How do you describe a feeling, or emotion? This question is similar to both of those things.

Druidry is a connecting force, between me and those who I hold dearest. It is the study I have undertaken in order to prove myself to the deities of the past, and the spirits of the now. It is a feeling of conectedness to the world around me that started out as a feeling of “this feels right, and this makes sense”.

At that time I didn’t think I would have the study or experience behind me that I do now.

For the times now, druidry is life. Even when the devotions are quiet, and the spirits don’t speak much, druidry is still life. It is still a connecting force, but it is that force between me and the kindred. Where even if I do not do formal ritual the little things I do in my daily life still show them I care. Show them that I still worship them but in a much different way.

Even with the pain I am much more a “show your devotion, not do your devotion” kind of pagan. I would rather go and give offerings at the cemetery than give them at my own altar. I would rather go with a grabby thing and pick up trash or feed the birds than give the nature spirits some flowery words and an offering into a bowl. The gods I talk to, even if it’s not in ritual I tend to speak to them to ensure to them I haven’t forgotten them. My memories of the times we’ve had in the otherworld and the strengths they give me now are not forgotten.

I find that the show your devotion, not do your devotion kind of paganism works well with druidry because of this. This is one of the reasons why druidry. The other, IT MAKES SENSE!

Druidry is polytheistic, as am I. Each deity is a much different personality than another. Sometimes over time people have made correlations between certain pantheons where one deity is similar or the same as others however to me that is UPG and my UPG is that they are all different.

Druidry worships all three kindred, as I do, as I have always wanted to do. A lot of wiccan circles do not fit right with who I am. They do not recognize those spirits in the world around us. The spirits of the forest and of the sea. The spirits of those family members who still come to take care of us. This to me is not right. Once again, my own thoughts here, but you need to worship all of the types of beings on the Earth not just the deities. The others deserve our love and worship too.

Druidry is an Earth based religion and worships the Earth Mother. This Earth Mother concept is rooted down into my being. It is rooted in my upbringing with my recycling and love of nature. It is a proper thing to be a hippie while being a pagan, even if you are decades late in your hippiness!

So that is why druidry, it fits me like a glove. One that I never want to take off.

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30 days of Druidry

Again I’m going to try to do this, lets see how I do with getting up this early and having peaceful time to work on it. Maybe writing will be my worship.

Why Druidry? (This is the new version)
Foundations: Cosmology
Foundations: Nature and Earth
Foundations: The Three Realms
Foundations: The Elements
Foundations: Altar, Grove and Nemeton
Foundations: Day-to-Day Practice
Relationships: Gods/Deities and Spirit [sneak peek]
Relationships: The Ancestors
Relationships: Spirits of the Land
Relationships: Ritual and Worship
Relationships: The Fire Festivals
Relationships: The Solar Festivals
Relationships: Rites of Passage
Inspirations: Awen and Creativity
Inspirations: Prayer and Meditation
Inspirations: Storytelling and Myth
Inspirations: Music, Poetry and Aesthetics
Inspirations: Ethics, Virtues and Values
Inspirations: Divination and Magic
Inspirations: Mysticism and Philosophy
Everyday Life: Druidry and Family Life
Everyday Life: Druidry and Romance
Everyday Life: Druidry and Work/Career
Everyday Life: Conservation and Environmentalism
Everyday Life: Druidry and Community
Everyday Life: Peace and Social Justice
Everyday Life: A Life in the Day of a Druid
The Future of Druidry
Advice to the Seeker

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Rising in the Dark

I rise up each day,
the light not yet present.
The sun has not yet graced us with it’s presence.

The darkness permeates,
the world around.
And yet the animals still happily run around.

The bunnies hop,
Around the lawns
In the darkness barely seen by man.

The birds awake,
With the rising sun.
Chirping wildly as it breaks ground.

The sun comes up,
Slowly there’s light.
Daybreaks into a greatly wonderful sound.

I rise up each day,
within the dark.
To a new and most different world.

A quiet serenity,
a peaceful place.
A place before the sound wakes up.

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Silence

There has been much silence around me.

Not literal silence, my mother keeps the tv on constantly, and if I try to turn it off to read she starts talking to me but that is not what I mean.

My practices have taken a turn for the not happening. The pain has been too much lately to be able to think let alone let the spirits come to me. I cannot concentrate on the influences on my body from the spirits around me because I cannot focus on my body because of the pain.

My divination abilities are still there. I even started my own side business from Chelly’s Creations called Voices of the Trees to allow people to contact me for ogham readings.

Because of my connection to the dead I wish I was able to stay up later, or become nocturnal, but that won’t happen any time soon I don’t think. I am dead by the end of the day and can normally barely get to bed. I will figure out a routine for devotion again. I think I need to do it mid day *shudder*

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A distance from home.

I don’t always feel at home sitting in my livingroom. I feel like a stranger in my own town. There is one place I feel at home, but it is 4hours away and in the middle of a system of interstate highways. There is a place out there where I have pagans who accept me. Understand when I can’t do something or have to sit down. The congreagation loves me and calls me “the Canadian” although, my grove isn’t always so sure of the fact that I am. My personality screams American, although my accent may tell the truth. The true me can show through down there and not have anyone look sideways at me

I may have a Canadian passport, I may live in whitby, my home is in Erie PA and so is my heart. My community is down there. That is where I feel at home. I guess I will always feel like a wanderer or maybe traveller is the right word. As I have to travel to find my home and then leave it just like I came.

I always wonder if I moved there if home would move again.

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